Like an eagle 🦅

It’s a bright afternoon down here in the village,

Alone and lonely I find flat, green and cool shade,

So I sat down there and watched the green plains,

To the north, the clouds are darkening ready to rain,

But to the South there is nice evening sun,

It leaves a silver lining as it shines through white clouds

I watched as an eagle fly spread its wing and crossed the sky,

So gracefully he flew rising effortlessly,

I wondered how life can be so free and sweet,

I crossed my hands as I admired it.

Like in a trance my mind was transported,

Come on let’s fly on the wind I said as I took your hand,

The world then suddenly turned more beautiful than usual,

I smelled the fragrance of the tulips and lilies and roses,

I felt for the first time the passing of the wind as if we were in harmony,

Magical world it was…

But there was a greater mesmerizing beauty,

So hard to explain for I had never seen such a beauty,

The flowing natural hair better than that of a wild horse,

The big smile on your face blossoming with love,

Oh divine countenance graced with an avanche of beauty.

Then suddenly I woke up as chilly water ran down my face,

I watched as the raindrops hit my eye,

I smelled the smell of soil.. felt the cool breeze,

But I was not curried away for I kept thinking about you.

Beautiful, yes you are so beautiful,

Intelligent, yes very intelligent,

Pretty smart, yes the smartest among the smart,

Humble, yes so humble like the Duka of Kalahari.

I love you.

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Dilemma

It’s been three years since you met her. At first, she was not even appearing on top ten list of girls to be considered for marriage. She was young, new in the city and a first year then. Around you were mature and beautiful ladies, say, ideal ones to be married. Somehow, you managed to keep her in the friend zone.

Life flowed and days passed, turned into weeks then into months and now years. First, top three on your list somehow got married and you were left feeling half hurt and half lonely. But you learned to move on. Life being single man became more interesting since the huge costs your married friends talk about were not part of the worry. Moreover, you had liberty to put for a date with any girl you so wished.

But this girl seemed to have been there for you and you have been there for her. When you were sick, she brought a bouquet of flowers. When you were lonely she gave you a call. When you were broke, she gave you ideas. When you had a heavy pocket, you bought her a pizza and she always sincerely appreciated you. Sure, she is the only girl in the whole world who makes you feel like a real man, who makes you feel loved and cared and meaningful.

Two months ago, you turned thirty, seven years after graduating from school of civil engineering. You have never practiced what you learned since you turned an entrepreneur. Sure, it’s time to make a decision. It’s time to ask the 50 friends you have planned their wedding to give you a hand.Yes, it’s time to make a choice from the array of girls who have been getting nice to you lately.

Yes, she is the one. People call her Jeb. She is chocolate, with long flowing black hair, one dimple, bulbous, wide smile, clear eyes… we love each other so much. Actually, we had a vocation to Mombasa and Maasai Mara two weeks ago.

Our relationship has one problem, her family adviser, cousins and uncles not mentioning parents have a problem letting her get married to a Kisii guy. We both know it just won’t be easy. Now she wants us to force things through, she wants a ball.

This world is governed by laws of nature. All that we choose to do have consequences. An apple tree can only produce apple fruits and never tomatoes or a mix of apples and tomatoes. When we do the right thing, good things come back to us. When we make a wrong decision, suffering, pain and loss must come to us a wheel behind the ox. Sometimes, we face such a big dilemma and we wonder what to do. Remember the law of the farm, you must reap that which you saw. If you saw faithfulness, love, integrity, self control, humbleness and patience… you will reap positive rewards. Hose decisions which seem to be easy are actually the ones with painful rewards. It’s always awesome to do the right thing at the right time, in the right place, in the right manner.

Overcoming

It been four years dating him. You met this guy when you were in second year. Then, he was a Prince Charming. He took you to hotels you never imagined existed, took you to watch wild life and occasionally you went out to swim, something you have always loved. Being new in the city, you felt like the queen of your village. The pictures and selfies you took became a great source of envy and pride.

He worked in one of the hospitals as a doctor, though he lived in a single room. When you asked why, he said..”Darling, am still a single man and I don’t need a big house. I like keeping everything low and being cool. I have rented out the house given by the hospital so that I can save for our future.” Perfect explanation, and actually a sweet one.

Parents became happy knowing their daughter is dating a doctor who is so caring and loving. They admired your love life, saved and printed some selfies and talked so well of you in the village. Every year, you planned a visit to your parents and her parents but it didn’t happen. Sure, a man can never lack an excuse, especially African man who is so charming.

Then you both decided to tie the note and cross over. You move in and begin a life together as you plan everything.

After the last semester, you decide to travel home.. to say hi to your parents in the village then come back to look for a job. Weirdly, you stay home three days and you don’t get even a text, let alone a call. You get a little worried, so you call. “I travelled to Uganda, for some field trip. I’ll be back next week.” Just another convincingly awesome reason why there was no call. But you get alarmed when you remember the phone rang, not as it rings when you call someone outside the country. Since you had the key, you decide to cut short your visit and get back to keep a clear conscience.

It’s late in the evening, the Nairobi sun is a little scorching, maybe because of the increased amount of dust in the air. You are tired and a little worried, a little emotional, a little moody and some fear lingers within. What if he lied to me? Then you get a nausea coz you are one month pregnant now.

Then you open the door and you almost fainted. Another girl child has taken your space. It’s hard to explain the feeling coz it’s strange strong and severely painful. So, you turn back and walk away not knowing where you are heading to. Tears roll down your face uncontrollably. You wonder Who will help you in this strange city?

Soon, you realize he was not a doctor but a watchman. He had not even finished high school. The house he talked about was never real. The mother she always called when you were together was a fixed and paid lady. It’s like a dream. It’s like getting into your house and the awesome finishing has been removed leaving an ugly rugged wall. It’s painful to realize you have been lied and fooled and played for four years. Actually, more than excruciating pain.

For the sake of love you had grown and the baby soon coming, you agree to get back to him. Sometimes you have to make hard decision for the sake of love and those you care, and now all you care about is your baby developing within.

It’s not working but dying. Yes, the relationship is getting worse. He is now so abusive and gets home drunk. He goes on cheating and being unreasonable. Gosh! Life becomes so hard and getting even a coin becomes close to impossible.

One morning, you decide to move to your classmates house to get a break, vowing never to return back again. Love has now turned into hate and in equal magnitude.

You are broke, not employed and now eight months pregnant. It’s time to move and start a life. You borrow a ksh 3000 loan, pay rent and use the balance to buy food. You don’t have a mattress, so you sleep on a leso.

Every night you cry unto you find yourself asleep. Sometimes, you wish the baby died and sometimes you get strong just for her.

Then God answers your first prayer, you get a job. Soon, you buy a mattress, then a couch then…

Life is like a walk in darkness. We are all born knowing nothing. This world can cause us much pain and suffering but how sweet to know Jesus is always there to walk us through. It is our lack of awareness that causes pain and suffering. Ignorance is the enemy, it is the darkness within that must be driven with a “chebunyo” or “Kanyasang “ called books and awareness.

We are always masters of our circumstances and conditions. If pain, then cause is within and if happiness, the cause is within. It is our duty to daily strive to get understanding. You can never drive within and stand still without for without is a merciless mirror of what has and is happening within.

We are the masters of our circumstances and we have a great friend and helper and lover and dependable father who will be always there to help and guide and lead us.

You are special.

There comes a time when special people come into our lives. We don’t strive to bring them for they come to make us feel loved, cared and special. They are so good and nice that you think they are angels. Every time, they make you smile, laugh and peachy.

They are like a shade in a desert, an healthy rose in the forest, the breeze bide the ocean, sun in a snowy winter, bread in jail, Mpesa in a crisis, a river after many miles in a dry windy desert. How we love them so much.They nurse our wounded hearts, they speak sweet words to our ears in the midst of confusion and noise, they feed us with yummy food when we are used to KDF if not herbs.

They mend our broken legs, inspire us to be creative and drive us to do our best. Oh, how sweet, what a great privilege to have such a heart shaker😊😊